You know how you get home from work in the morning and you say to yourself “oh, I’m going to work” before you get out of bed? That’s the same thing that’s happening when you take a train to work. You get out of bed and start your day, but you don’t even know why you’re doing it.
The reason you took a train to work is to get to the office before your boss gets up. If you get there before he does then you can take off and work on your own, but if you do that, youll probably get fired. The worst thing you can do is ask your boss why he’s up so early. And you know what, your boss’s probably not going to tell you.
I know, I know, I know. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I love you guys, but I feel like a huge hypocrite if I dont go to work early enough.
I get that you want to get to work early because youre sick of all the work you have to do. Thats a good reason, but I can’t help but feel like its more selfish than a good reason. I mean, youre sick and tired of getting up early to do the work, but youre sick of waiting for work to finish. Just like youre sick of getting up early to do schoolwork, but you feel like youre wasting your time.
It is true that people do go to work early, but for you I feel like I do more work than you do. Or maybe I just feel like you do more work because youre more tired.
I feel like it is more selfish for you to work for me because you have that expectation that I will be in a good mood and you feel that I would do a good job. But for me to feel good about you makes me feel like youre more selfish and less of a person.
I feel like you want to get up and go to school early because you are going to school with a bunch of other people who also feel like they have the same expectation of you. But in the end you feel like you are wasting your time and it is selfish of you to work for me because you have that expectation.
I think that this comes from one of two different ways. One, you are probably going to feel like you are going to be the person who gets up and goes to school early and does well, and you don’t feel like you have to put in the work and have more than one person in the room. Or two, you have the expectation that I will make you feel good about yourself. And you have the expectation that I will do the work for you.
That’s why I call it “the train to busan syndrome”. When I get up in the morning I do the work for myself, and it feels like a part of me is still part of the process. I’m not saying that this is the only way, but I do think it’s a common one. You get up and you do the work because you feel like you have to.
I think I was talking about it in a different context in an earlier post, but I can’t remember what I was talking about. I think it’s about being an employee and making sure you’re doing what you’re supposed to be doing and not letting your manager tell you what to do.